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Have you ever wanted to be someone’s muse?

A question that had drawn Saima’s attention back in the day. They had gone by other names, much different from the one they sport today. But they remember, quite clearly the way that authors and artists and quietly picked up on something within them. Something that had stirred the spirits of so many that the deity had passed by in their everyday interactions.

A question that had been posed to them many times. Leading them to the drawing rooms, the studios of creators. Leading them to the bookstores, the places where the intellectuals talked, trying to recall the stories of times long lost. In these moments, Saima would speak – happily giving details to the creations that were made. Of course many would say these tales were constructed but with someone like Saima present, there would always be a hidden truth, a secret belief to the magic of such stories.

It was in these days that people would draw near. To be a muse, to be a source of inspiration for these creatives satisfied Saima deeply. In a time period where people were trying to determine their national sense of self, where people were…awakening so to speak, it seemed to be the best possible option for them. To be in the presence of all these people, some of which Saima had quietly loved, doted on in their own otherworldly ways. 

They still think back to those salons, the drawing rooms in which so much was made. They remember fondly those that had helped create traditions of literature, of story-telling. There is a reason that Saima had always been fond of the creative types. And this time period would certainly be one of them.

5. a trait they’re not ashamed of (but maybe should be)

Saima doesn’t actually mind being able to hold people at a comfortable length from them. After all, it is within their culture to maintain some space at pretty much all times unless with close friends and family.

However, Saima has taken this tendency to extremes that often border on reclusive behavior more than once in their existence. And although ..they know being so self-isolated often exacerbates their depression at times, they are way too used to it to feel much shame about it.

They are trying to change by stepping out of a position that doesn’t fit for them but it remains left to be seen, how do they feel the space left behind of going to those international gatherings or whatever. 

1 and 2?

  1. a trait they have too much of  (ex. too much pride = arrogance)

Probably paranoia. They’ve been hyper-aware of their circumstances and the way certain beings tend to interact with each other, that they do have a solid wariness of the future. It leaves them incredibly distrustful in subtle ways, always doubting the intentions of others. it is this paranoia that has probably contributed to them being able to keep people at a relatively comfortable distance because why bother letting them get too close if they will inevitably betray you. 

  1. a trait they don’t have enough of (ex. too little pride = insecurity)

Too little self-love. They are very self-critical to a point that it is a little worrying to witness. Saima usually downplays this trait but they do have a hard time believing that people think of them in good ways. Or that they are cared about in any way. It often leads them to not act on their feelings and be demotivated from even bothering.

Assuming the worst denies others the opportunity to choose and yet they have this kind of thought process anyway.

3, 4!

  1. a trait they express in the wrong way

Saima is not great at expressing their need for attention from time to time. Which means they don’t do it at all and tends to let their needs fester until they get really sad because of it. And sometimes that leads to a quiet burning need but feeling hopeless as to where and how to seek that out. 

So yeah – they are not very communicative about their wants and they pay the price for that. 

  1. a trait they’re ashamed of

They are embarrassed of how damn secretive that they’ve had to be for so long that it feels like they don’t know if anyone will ever actually know them. They are so good at keep people away at a comfortable distance, that letting anyone close enough to see a lot more of them feels way too alien for them to be bothered with. 

And the streak towards apathy doesn’t really help matters either. 

✨ fatal flaw

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You got A) Fatal flaw: Your uncompromising sense of justice.

When it comes to right and wrong, there’s no gray area. Not for you. You’re like a cop who says stuff like, “Listen, buddy, I don’t make the rules—but I WILL enforce them.” Look, you’ve got principles, and I get that. I can respect that. But you’re going to wind up dead in a river (JAVERT) if you don’t ease up a little on the rulebook and reconcile these two opposing viewpoints before a convict saves your life and shatters everything you thought you knew.

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✨ TAGGING: @traumeriin @shorestar whoever wants to steal this

✨ love style.

what’s your love style?

✨ Storge

For you, love and friendship are almost the same thing
And your love tends to be the enduring, long lasting kind
(You’ve been known to still have connections with ex’s)
But sometimes your love is not the most passionate
Leap before you look, and you’ll find that fire you crave

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✨ TAGGING: consider yourself tagged

Germania Kenya Korea North Italy Vietnam

What is something you are proud of about yourself?

What is the hardest thing you have ever had to do?

“Recognize the limits of what I can do for the people inhabiting my land. I am capable of many things but I can.. I couldn’t prevent them from suffering throughout time as often as they did. The scars of that are still present and although there has been great progress – I had to recognize that my role isn’t exactly to prevent that sort of thing but to help others deal with the circumstances they may find themselves in.“

  • Kenya: What is your favourite wild animal?

“I’ll always have a fondness for lynxes and flying squirrels. I couldn’t even really articulate to you why exactly those animals in particular. But I do appreciate them and enjoy them a lot. I enjoy when I catch the sight of them while I’m out wandering forests.“

  • Korea: What is one thing you accomplished by yourself?

“…Spread knowledge of the old, old days to those who wanted to document a version of stories that previously had been told only through oral traditions. And although I love the oral tradition, I think it was..worthwhile to have something written down even if it’s not exactly as the way I recall actually telling people. Ah what can I say, humans always have a way of altering things for their purposes. “

What is your least favourite part of your personality?

“I’m pretty self-isolating and a lot of the time that is purposeful. I tend to be entirely too good at hiding parts of myself from others. It makes actually opening up to others difficult because I have to wonder how many layers deep are people really willing to get to know about me.  Also that whole apathy thing – I’m not really lying about that. I can be incredibly callous about the fate of those I know aren’t going to have a lengthy existence in the first place. I tend to keep that to myself though more often than not.“

What is something you are proud of about yourself?

“I like the way I can convey thoughts and feelings that aren’t understandable to human ears and translate them into music that they can at least somewhat get their heads around. I think performing allows me to channel my magic in a way that is fairly accessible for those around me and I can’t help but appreciate that.“

Egypt, Liechtenstein.

Do you stand up for what you believe in? How?

“Yes. I do so through performance, through patronizing creative folks, through telling stories, through helping people. Heck, through existing I am continuing to stand for the continuation of mythos and folkloric culture in the modern era. I encourage the imaginations and the beliefs of those that care to believe and through assisting others I can remind them why this place is one of incredible magic.“

How do people underestimate you most often?

“Eh, by thinking I can’t defend myself. I have done so on multiple occasions and many still have no idea the depths of what I am capable of. It’s for the best if some people never fully find out. “

Australia Bulgaria China Finland

Do you have any quirks when speaking?

“Ah yeah, probably. My accent tends to come through pretty clearly and I tend to speak as if I am carrying a tune without really meaning to. I do also pause from time to time if I’m not speaking in Estonian to phrase out my thoughts properly.  So it might seem like it takes a little longer for me to speak but.. it’s really not that slow – despite what people may say.“

Who do you consider close to you?

“Ah. That… that’s a good question. I’ve had to reexamine that since stepping away from a role I’ve played for some time. But some names – Jaakko, Lilli, Stella, Berwald… others may depend on the circumstance. And I’m still working on becoming familiar with others because I need to change my circle in a way. “

What was the best moment of your life?

“That.. that’s so hard for me to answer, I’m not entirely certain that I could. I suppose running into Kalevpoig was pretty amazing. To witness that ancient king in person and to know him as an associate was absolutely delightful. 

And I guess from there seeing when people were actually making the stories known in other fashions was rather great to see.“

What do you prefer, kindness, sternness, or apathy?

“Kindness. I tend to take that first over anything else and kindness can mean being able to give tough advice to others. But you can still do that in a way that isn’t unnecessarily crude to others.“

Denmark, Finland

Do you wish for something of your past?

“You know… It’s hard to wish something of my past when my past is a whole complicated deal. A mixture of reality and fantasy blurring together to the point that the difference is ultimately irrelevant since it all feels and is true in my accounts. So – honestly? Not really, as much as I love the experiences of way, way long ago – I think it’s more important to take experiences and leverage that towards whatever the future may hold.“

What do you prefer, kindness, sternness, or apathy?

“Kindness and sternness aren’t exactly mutually exclusive. But I think I would have to do kindness and that kindness can mean being stern to someone sometimes in order to help them out. I think conducting whatever you can with a sense of kindness is incredibly valuable and not taken seriously enough.

As for apathy, I find myself plagued with it. I wouldn’t really wish it on others though. It can way too easily prevent one from taking meaningful action.“