[text] Iâm so tired of it all sometimes.
[text ] it seems like nothing much I can do is really enough. Even if that is just my mind getting to me.
[text] Iâm so tired of it all sometimes.
[text ] it seems like nothing much I can do is really enough. Even if that is just my mind getting to me.
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     âSeems stupid tâ make a fuss over somethinâ so simple.. Guess that call it an old way of thinkinâ. Which I guess is alright, so long as yer not closinâ yer mind to other shit.â Ivar took a longer puff of his cigarette and thought for a moment to himself. He knew a lot of people who preferred to use old thinking.. His brother was one of those people that had a hard time with new lingo and concepts, mostly because he locked himself away for days, weeks even months at a time. But even that man could open his mind to shit like this.. hell, he was with Saima, wasnât he? He called them by they pronouns, and he damned well took the time to get to know the shit.. Because he seemed to love Saima, and this was important to them.
     âWaldoâs a good example of that shit.. The man loves how things use tâ be, but he learns as shit changes.. He also values peoples feelings and shit too, tho.. Maybe thaâs the difference.â
âRight, thereâs nothing wrong with maintaining some of the older things one is used to. But if you close yourself off to new ways, itâs not only harmful to yourself but to society at large which is going to keep on changing regardless of whether one likes it or not. â While Saima always had an attachment to some older traditions that helped them feel connected, it was still important for them to be able to adjust and bring whatever new changes fits them best.
âHe is a great example of thhat. I think that is very much the difference. When you value peopleâs feelings and all that – it makes sense to be willing to change to accommodate them.â
     âSâppose thaâs true.â Ivar nodded in agreement as he continued to smoke his cigarette and think about the whole thing. âHeard of lots of kids, people in general thaâ struggle with it in lots of different places. Shitty.. Real shitty.â
âItâs so true because somehow people are so..unwilling and unable to let people just exist in peace. Like itâs not that hard if youâd stop making obstacles for everybody who isnât the obvious prototype that you usually design for. Bu nooo, people would rather make a fuss and make things harder for everyone. Itâs not surprising but itâs certainly something Iâve lost patience with.â
     âRight! Smart people those humans are. Ah, Iâm sure ya knew, but Swedish has a neutral pronoun. Iâm sure Waldoâs used it around ya. Sâ only been gettinâ popular in the last seven or so years, but itâs been around a lot longer. Jusâ unofficially.â Ivar said as he turned his head to exhale that smoke away from his friend, he didnât wish to invade their personal space with smoke, at least not if he could try and help it. âI mean, I donâ really identify personally with this stuff, but seems silly not tâ open yer mind tâ something that isnât harmful.â
âYeah, I heard about that. Pretty sure Waldo has used it to describe me a number of times. Itâs interesting how people have been creating more language to describe things more accurately.âThey idly ran their hand through a few strands of their hair, playing with it as a picked up habit. âIt is pretty silly not to be open to this stuff – which is why I often get so annoyed when I see people joke about it like itâs not important. Like finding these terms helps people stay alive in the midst of everything else, mocking them for finding themselves is just rude as all get out.â
      âCourse.. Itâs scary but rewardinâ. To make changes, someone has to stand up first at the risk of being told theyâre crazy and immoral. Not many people like being the first one to take the brunt of criticism and âold thinkingâ.â Ivar nods his head slowly as he decides to light up a cigarette and start puffing away the smoke. âYa deserve to reap the rewards of beinâ yerself. Yourself, I mean.â
âRight, right. What seems to help is that so many humans are doing the same thing in that coming to terms with who they really are and being themselves. I feel like – if a number of these folks are going through with it, I really have no reason not to do so myself.â It also seemed to help that these humans had been the ones to put into words feelings that there was nothing in their native tongue to really express. âIâd like to think so. Iâve put up with feeling not like myself for so long for reasons I couldnât articulate. Hah, I got what you meant.â
âI know, Iâm a total sweetheart once I get to like someone. Hah~. Waldo likes ya a whole lot, and turns out so do I. Yer opinion matters to me, ya know. And ya got balls. Figure of speech, not tryinâ to take a stab at yer gender, but âthatâ shit takes guts. Ya are beinâ yerself, itâs no wonder people are drawn to ya, darlinâ.â
âHah. Iâm glad that Iâve made a good impression on you too. Youâre definitely a cool sort.â Saima canât resist the smile that appears on their face. âI do appreciate that credit for sure. Itâs been interesting and sometimes scary but itâs been worthwhile – best decision that Iâve made in a long time. I can actually be the self that feels right, for once. â

  âAt first you kind of made a bad impression on me. I wasnât sure who you were and why you were there. And you kind of had a way with words that wasnât exactly… the best. However, youâre starting to grow on me. The fact that youâre willing to own up to mistakes that youâve made earned you a lot of respect from me – despite my opinion not meaning all that much. Nonetheless, I donât mind spending time with you every now and then. Youâre better than I thought and thatâs always a good realization to have.â
[[ Interesting things? :O ]]
[[I suppose suggestive is a better word lol.-shrug-]

  Well, I think thatâs a bit obvious. Smash.