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  • 33: What your favorite part of your body:

“I like to think I’ve got nice eyes. I don’t know. It’s hard to play favorites really when it’s only fairly recently that I’ve gotten to like the body a little bit more.”

  • 35: Love (>,<, or =) Sex For those of us who don’t remember our math thats “greater than, less than, or equal to]

“Ehhh. I don’t know. I’m initially inclined to go greater just because I’m a little more interested in love. But neither is really all that required, so maybe I’ll just go with equal as something I actually feel.“

  • 44: Have/would you ever have sex on a plane?

“I haven’t. I..I don’t know if I would. Maybe I could be convinced but it’s not exactly a fantasy that I actively have or anything.“

  • 46: What is something nonsexual that makes you horny?

“Being really comfortable. If I can fully feel at ease and just hang out with someone I like, it’s much more ease to go from cozy to affectionate to whatever else.“

24, 26, 27

  • 24: Three spots that drive you insane:  “More spots? Hmm, chest, jawline, back. That can you know do some interesting things.”
  • 26: Do you like it when your sexual partner moans: “Of course, nothing like hearing someone let you know how much they are enjoying the experience.”
  • 27: Worst sexual idea you ever had: “Worst? Oh that – uh maybe pursuing someone in a position of authority. That was kind of a strange situation all around.”

17, 22, 33

  • 17: Have you ever tasted yourself? [If no, would you?] [If yes, what did you think?]

“Ah… I. No. I haven’t really. I don’t see the appeal in doing so. So I wouldn’t either. ”

  • 22: One sexual thing you would never do:

“….Being degraded to the point of tears. humiliation for me isn’t something I’d enjoy.”

  • 33: What your favorite part of your body:

“If I had to choose, I guess my legs are pretty nice. I mean, I think so but it’s all very subjective really.”

20: A food that you would like to use during a sexual experience:21: How big is too big:22: One sexual thing you would never do:23: Biggest turn on:24: Three spots that drive you insane:25: Worst possible time to get horny:26: Do you like it when your sexual partner moans

20. “Personally, I’m not a fan of food during a sexual experience. Unless ice counts – but that’s more sensation than anything else. Tends to get messier than necessary. But I could be convinced to try a thing or two.”

21. “Too big? Can be fairly accommodating but…if I am scared looking at it, then it’s probably going to be a rough time. Might have to work out some other form of play in that case.”

22.”What I’d never do..? Probably not one for watersports to be honest.”

23.”Biggest turn on – being worshipped. The sound of someone’s voice. Feeling someone’s hands all over, restraint.Sorry, I’ve got a few things.”

24. “Neck, inner thighs, collarbones”

25: “During a meeting, especially when I clearly don’t want to be there.”

26. “Oh hell yes, I do love the sound of hearing my partner moan. It’s truly a delightful sound to say the least.”

what is your archetype?

your archetype is the realist.

traits: practical, understanding, honest, brutal, logical, creator, intelligent, sensible, down-to-earth, reasonable

the realist is most commonly used to symbolize the highest possible outcome in a dire situation. they are the ones who have everything planned, and hand out reality checks as if they were pamphlets to those who need them–which, quite honestly, is everyone who isn’t a realist. although they can be harsh (brutal truth over merciful), they are nurturers and care more than they let on. realists tend to do things that will lead to the best outcome, and use their knowledge of reading people to manipulate situations and problems in order to get out of a rock and a hard place.

fictional characters that are realists: hermione granger, dana scully, thorin oakenshield, lestrade (from sherlock), leia organa, willow rosenberg

other personality types that go with this: ravenclaw, horned serpent, poseidon, artemis

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Flashbacks run through their head in the midst of conducting business. Right in the middle of trying to put on a nice face with those they want to pursue trade with, Saima has shockwaves of memories. Visions of being forced to obey, being forced to bow down before those that are in front of them. Visions of always being lesser-than, second-class and even below that within their own land. 

Sounds rush in through their head as they shake a hand, sign a document or two – thoughts of obligation, of suppression. Of being torn apart over and over again by those that wanted control. Questioning if this modern day dealing with each other is just a transformed version of the past.  Oh, how keeping a contented and calm face is much more difficult than many might think.  Oh, how deep the well of anger and seething can go. 

“I’m surprised that you made it.“ 

It’s a comment that they’ve heard more than once. Saima has a way of surviving when literally no one wanted them too. Much to their own surprise at times. It doesn’t mean that these comments don’t grate on them. There’s a certain condescension to these comments as if the persons are nostalgic for the days that their destruction was taken for granted. Like others almost enjoyed the thought of completely destroying them.  For once, that’s not paranoia talking – it’s memories, the knowledge of the past and what people had really wanted to take them off the face of the earth.

Nostalgia, what a horrible terrible thing to see in others. It makes them cringe, repulsed by the ‘glory days’ of others.  In moments of their own ‘pleasant’ memories, Samia opts not to dwell on them long – rose-colored glasses never would do them any good. 

Those glory days can go right to hell. And all your empires with it. There is a spiteful attitude that they still have. It leaves them distrustful of those that have had power over them. It even leaves them distrustful of those they are allied with that have a whole lot of power. Former empires – oh, they know all too well what lurks in their memories, and the ways that they reflect on their pasts while having a drink is often enough to inspire violent thoughts in Saima. Violent, rebellious thoughts wanting nothing more to spit in the memories of such wistfulness.  

These spiteful thoughts can overwhelm them- to the point that they have to remove themselves from gatherings of their colleagues. Best to exit the area before explicit swears come out, cursing those that seem to take some pride in the accomplishments while it’s obvious many still bear the costs of those ‘achievements.’  These exits cause Saima to disappear into the night, into the void where they can be truly and utterly alone. To seclude themselves away, in a room, in their own homes – let the anger just sit for a little while. To write it out, sing it out, walk with it in mind. Just until it calms down for a little while. It’s normal – this anger will likely always be there.  Why wouldn’t it be?

 And yet they wonder to this day, if others figure that they should not have made it. Wonder if the others wish for their disappearance still. 

It seems likely so.  Or at least feels like it.

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CLASSIC.

black and white. powder puffs. red lipstick. winged eyeliner. white kitten heels. black lace lingerie. icy blue eyes. rain. abandoned cars. skeletons. acid. poison. voyeurism.switchblades. strangling. overcoats. looking over your shoulder. trans-atlantic accents. private detectives. dinner parties. haunted mansions. cobwebs. perfect blonde curls. kitchen knives. shock. cellars. dust. ghosts. dark alleys. empty streets. horn-rimmed glasses. radiation. zombies. serial murder. suspicion. paranoia. the city. witches. the devil.cannibalism. conspiracies. amulets. abject terror. the American South. the American Northeast. England. analog cameras.

CRYPTID & URBAN LEGEND.

aliens. blinding light. dark woods. driving at night. claw marks. bite marks. men in black. memory loss. dismembered bodies. sewers. flashlights. cell phones. video cameras. cars with tinted windows. unlabeled cassette tapes. bugs. big cities. urban crimes. clowns.something rustling outside your window. glowing light. unsolved mysteries. suburbia.mirrors. the american pacific northwest. the american midwest. hiking. backpacking.

GOTHIC.

gaslights. corsets. ballrooms. candlelight. mist. starless nights. full moons. cobbled streets. horse-drawn carriages. mysterious strangers. bogs. moors. forests. mountains.castles. velvet. silver. brass. gold. jewels. domino masks. the opera. dangerous romances. tragic romances. violins. roses. lilies. empty graves. crosses. cemeteries. snow. ice. the gallows. crows. milk-white skin. ambiguous illness. fangs. pointed nails. something howling in the night. capes. gloves. top hats. straight razors. lightning. pipe organs. underground caverns. bats. mice. rats. ravens. cats. pearls. attics. talismans. axes. wood. isolation in a room full of people. vampires. werewolves. ghosts. coffins. western europe. eastern europe. bones. churches. catacombs. mausoleums. books.

PARANORMAL.

malevolent spirits. seances. spells. missing bodies. hidden graves. white noise. static.flickering lights. rings of salt. demons. poltergeists. dark histories. old buildings. cold air.wells. urban exploration. a dog barking at unseen things. iconoclasm. black ooze. old photographs. dark bodies of water. crucifixes. priests. possession. exorcisms. dolls.

SLASHER.

bloodbaths. massacres. wanton nudity. newspapers. leather jackets. letterman jackets. converse sneakers. obscured faces. social unrest. bonfires. lakes. babysitters. high school. lockers. dead leaves in the fall. jack-o’-lanterns. passing shadows. outdated television sets. nightmares. psychiatrists. hospitals. unstoppable forces. gunfire. police. landline telephones. improvised weapons. halloween. secrets. revelations. cut wires. character masks. scrunchies. wild curls. jeering children. parties. fire. swearing. revulsion. california. the american midwest. ambulances.

THRILLER.

daylight. fluorescent lighting. morgues. unwavering eye contact. tension. lit rooms empty rooms. killer in plain sight. a dog digging in the newly-planted flower bed. steely gazes. paperwork. anagrams. codes. convicted killers. missing persons. law enforcement. federal agents. small towns. suspicion. paranoia. subdued terror. dimly-lit parking lots. a noise in the distance

Saima has moments where they honest to goodness want to run away. It’s a restlessness that comes from having thoughts about feeling irrelevant and unneeded. They are aware of how iwithdrawn they can get when these moods come on – so the desire to run away is also a way to escape from potentially burdening anyone with their presence.

 Most of the time the temptation would only to be further out into nature or something but there have been temptations to outright disappear. 

Lately, they haven’t been actually going through with it – but it is a feeling that comes on surprisingly often.

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1. How do they move and carry themselves? Pace, rhythm, gestures, energy?

Already answered but another detail – is that the goal in the way Saima carries themselves is to have a loose sense of composure. Like the way they gesture and carry themselves has a slight looseness to it but it’s still has a certain grace to it that’s hard to put a description on.

But the way they move, one can tell that there’s more than meets the eye to them. 

13. How do they greet the world — what is their typical attitude towards life? How does it differ in different circumstances, or towards different subjects? Why do they take these attitudes, and why do they change? How do these tend to be expressed?

Saima tends to greet the world with a casual skepticism. They consider themselves a realist but they tend to really have something of a wary idea towards the world. Their experiences of having been through a lot and subjugated has made them a lot more cautious about the way they interact with each others. 

They tend to keep this skepticism to themselves and only is expressed in moments where they can feel comfortable being candid with other colleagues. Otherwise, they tend to keep up a determined and hard-working face towards those around them. Since despite their wariness, they have every intention of continuing to do their best in spite of everything. 

41. What associations do they bring to mind? Words or phrases, images, metaphors or motifs? Why?

The blue sky, the Baltic Sea, the dark forests, the bogs, the fields of the countryside.

The way that there are two sides to the people – a winter self and a summer self – fitting for the seasons. The determination to thrive, the survival after all the years of being disparaged. 

The voices of people singing, the movement of people working, the sound of music from a performance. The bonfires during the summer, the smell of rye bread, the flight of the barn swallow.

Images, sights, sounds – associated with the ways that people live, survive and make the most of their existence. Images that make people think of their home and what it means to be where they are from.

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1. How do they move and carry themselves? Pace, rhythm, gestures, energy?

Saima has a fairly smooth and controlled kind of way of movement. It feels natural when they move or something – but there’s something about their gestures that feels a little languid, a little bit like opening up a little bit to people through their actions. 

Their rhythm adjusts to the energy of their surroundings – so that they try to keep up with wherever they might be on a given moment. In general though, they keep a brisk walking pace and trying to move in an efficient matter. 

Their energy is quieter, it increases during certain periods but – for the most part, they maintain a very calm and relaxed presence. It feels like these days they can be collected and put-together despite everything that might being going on within their minds. 

12. How are they bodily expressive? How do they use nonverbal cues such as their posture, stance, eyes, eyebrows, mouths, and hands?

They do a lot of expression through their eyes. It’s very easy for someone to tell how Saima really feels through they look at someone – narrowing eyes, widened eyes, averted glances. All those things have a meaning in terms of how Saima is actually reacting to. 

Their mouth they try to keep a neutral look with – but they have been known to give a slight grimace or a slight grin in a reaction to something. 

Saima tends to use a lot of subtle nonverbal cues because they don’t really feel like talking all that much. So in the way they shift their posture, the way they use their hands to just to signal a pause of shock- they can be rather expressive. 

18. What kind of person could they become in the future? What are some developmental paths that they could take, (best, worst, most likely?) what would cause them to come to pass, and what consequences might they have? What paths would you especially like to see, and why?

Saima is looking to become more of a confident and self-affirming person. Developing in the best route – they could be more comfortable in their own skin and more like to change in a way that makes sense to them. Additionally, best consequences with their people doing better leads to them feeling stronger and more willing to take more of a direct route. Worst – they start to withdraw further and further from those around them. Although they’ll continue to try and be comfortable – fear might keep them from being the person they need to be. 

Most likely – They’ll try to face any oncoming crises with grace and calm while trying to reach out for help at more drastic measures. I’d like to see them become more comfortable with themselves because I really need them to be a little more happier with themselves for real. 

22. How do people respond to them, and why might these responses differ?

People from their own land tend to feel a natural comfort around them mixed with a bit of wonder since they can tell that something is different and almost ethereal about them. There is a feeling that somehow they came out of the mythos of their land even if there is an inability to describe it. 

To other humans, Saima probably comes across as somewhat strange and maybe a little bit difficult to get a hold on. They tend to react to them with a little bit of caution – treating them as something like a human with this kind of instinctive uncanny valley feeling that doesn’t always get expressed. 

Obviously, the differences come from whether or not Saima is naturally associated with the people within a given area. 

23. How do they respond to difficult social moments? What makes them consider a social situation difficult?

Saima tends to remain quiet and internally withdraw from difficult social moments. They may become a lot more aloof to those around them and respond in brief ways to cut off things shorter. If possible, they tend to actually leave the area of such a social moment because it’s just a lot and they don’t care to be around it. 

Usually the feeling of being inadequate around others makes social situation difficult, and they often leave discussions if they feel alienated and just not a part of the audience that it is addressed to – if it’s really binary in nature, it tends to make them just kind of shift in their seat and glance out the nearest window as a distraction.

32. Do they have any “props” that are a significant part of their life, identity, activities, or self-presentation somehow? What are they, how are they used, and why are they so significant? How would these props’ absence impact them, how would they compensate, and why?

Maybe the closest thing would be musical instruments – kannel, piano – or musical choir books. They would be highly attached to them because music is pretty crucial to their identity and making them feel comfortable in their surroundings. These instruments are used for making music which they take a lot of joy and comfort in. 

In the absence of them – Saima just hums to them a lot, or listens to a lot of music on their phone. They just feel the need to have music nearby in any situation that it can be afforded. 

Otherwise, little accessories might help affirm the way that they’ve been changing to fit a better and more accurate self.