“Honestly? I would rather know exactly when I’ll die. I’m tired. And frankly, I would probably get some comfort out of knowing when exactly I’ll die. I kind of tend to like having that kind of information ahead of time – despite it not actually being a feasible option. Sure it’ll likely be really unfortunate in terms of how this will actually play out but at least the hundred years would give me some time to make peace with the whole situation. ”
“Let’s put it this way, there is a reason that I maintain my guard around the presence of a someone located directly to the east of me. I think that would give you enough of an answer, does it not?” An obvious choice? Yes, but the most accurate one for the question at the same time.
“Oh hey there..” Saam’s voice remains calm especially once they are caught up in a hug. Of course, Berwald wasn’t likely to say much at this point And so they remained quiet, careful to hold on their partner in return. They idly run a hand down the side of Ber’s face in an effort to be sweet to him.
[Coolly, the pull their shirt away from the other with somewhat narrowed eyes.]
One, don’t touch me.
And two, I didn’t ask your opinion. But thanks for your ‘tips’.
“It’s definitely something that should be kept an eye on and will only become more and more common as the days roll on. It’s a major reason why my place has made such a focus on getting into and getting good with cyber security efforts. So ..to sum it up, it’s another form of disarming and destabilizing places that could very easily exacerbate already tense situations between lands. ” Although they remain relatively calm, it is something that they’ve spent a lot of time thinking about while on the job – just because they have had experiences dealing with vulnerabilities and thus are a lot more wary of them and the potential effects of their exposure.
💘 = Does your muse believe in astrology signs? If so, what sign are they most compatible with? And is this important when considering a date?
Saima doesn’t really consider astrology signs all that much. Not that they are bad necessarily, it just doesn’t really register as all that important to them.
Apparently the most compatible signs for Pisces are Cancer, Scorpio and Capricorn. Saima doesn’t really ask about this like ever, so it’s not important when considering a date.
It is certainly a factor they consider. Mostly because they would rather find a way to be somewhat comfortable with a partner. Saima is personally pretty comfortable financially – although they know full well that it’s still somewhat okay compared to wealthier areas in the continent. So what seems to be important to them is that they even feel remotely comfortable dating.
They want to be self-reliant and self-sufficient, even more so than they are currently. They make a point to handle their business well and still live a decent life. And thus prefer partners who are able to do the same. It does not mean they have to be rich. Saima is definitely aware of how one could live on relatively little and be fine. It’s something they’ve done for most of their lives. In fact, they have some reservations about dating rich partners because they don’t want to give off the wrong impression and tend to be on the more cautious of sides. It also makes them question why such partners would show an interest in them in the first place. They don’t want to ask too much of anyone or take advantage of them. There’s a lot of anxiety around wealthier partners – that they may not ever actually mention to said people unless in private.
So as long as a partner can keep on top of their responsibilities, Saima would be more than happy to date them.
I don’t sleep all that well. I get several hours of sleep a night. And to be honest with you, I do get a lot of replaying visions of things I’ve done and failures. So any sleep I do get isn’t incredibly restful. I do often end up fairly drained even after a decent amount of sleep. So it’s not really a matter of how I sleep it’s often whether or not I sleep at all.
11. How often do you cry?
I tend to keep those events fairly private. But I guess I find myself stressed to the point of tears once every few months or so. Sometimes depression creeps up on me but that usually just leaves me relatively numb rather than all that ready to cry.
15. Worst thing a lover has done to you?
Cheat. And then belittle me when confronted with the reality of their betrayal.
I guess I have some scars on my chest from being subjugated to some let’s say- incredibly harsh treatment during the second World War. I had already been made vulnerable due to the loss of my population at such a rate and being under people’s control – but having been captured, those forces had no issues attempting to test the limits of what I could survive.
I remember being near-dead, revived and being put back into that near-dead condition a number of times.
I think the emotional scar – is just the collective feeling of not having my own autonomy for years and years on end. It felt like I was never going to be capable of handling my own affairs – or that the world would never let me as long as the land had some appeal to be controlled by someone else.
It still kind of lingers around me to this day, to the point that the way that I see my colleagues has been permanently affected.
Had a crush on a village girl that was close to my physical age at the time. I ..I was convinced that I was going to try and marry her at the time. I spent time trying to get to know her and everything. But I really should have known that her family had heard rumors about me not being the ideal uh ‘partner’ for her and so quite publically, she told me I couldn’t really get any closer to her. That was a relatively crushing moment because it just highlighted what might not be possible for me at an early age.
As energy deprived as Saima could be sometimes, they tended to be able to muster a little bit more if Lilli was involved. “Oh hey there Lilli.” A slightly drained smile, they give in welcome.
“Submissions for a regional show you say? I think you should do it. You definitely have the talent to submit something really cool for it.“
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