“Same. Maybe we should start a committee or something. the Bamf association – for friendship failures.”
‘ bamf: bad at making friends. ’
Tag: asks
♤ – What they thought about your muse when first meeting.
“I have heard much about you – but it should be nice to make your acquaintance. ” They are looking to approach the woman with respect in trying to negotiate new relations in this first period of independence.
(symbol), something they hate about your muse
“I don’t like admitting this – but I do have issues with how you can inadvertently make me feel really inadequate. Of course, that’s been a thing for me for a while in private – but somehow being around you occasionally intensifies it. Of course, you get on with plenty of people so it’s easy to just feel like a passerby I guess. It’s the risk I take, no?
Maybe because I have this overwhelming feeling that you’re just humoring me for the sake of it. It’s likely irrational but..I feel like I put myself out there and ..ugh. It’s dumb. Don’t mind me.”
♤ – What they thought about your muse when first meeting.
“Well, this is entirely new territory I’m navigating here but I should probably be quiet and listen. Since I really have a lot to learn here. Although he seems like an interesting person to be around.”
“You’re beautiful.”
Saima remains quiet for a few moments, it was always a little bit nerve-inducing when something like that was said. Even from someone who clearly cared about them – they found it difficult to handle.
“Thanks. ..thanks a lot Berwald. I uh, appreciate it.” Glancing down, they seem uncertain how to process this information and anxiously fiddle with the bottom of their shirt.
😘🍺
A night out with Anneke was a welcome time as far as Saima was concerned. They could catch up over drinks, enjoy the sounds of the music around them. And maybe Saima could do a little more singing for their company. No they hadn’t in their somewhat buzzed state tried to make a good impression. What kind of silly nonsense was that?
All that mattered at the moment was that it felt so good to be around Anneke. And they had found themselves being willing to open up some more to the woman. She fascinated them, if they were honest. The way that she carried herself was enthralling and that more forthright nature was very admirable for sure. It left Saima fairly distracted for a few moments at a time as they observed her – listening to what the other had said.
It was in the midst of one of those distracted moments that Saima found themselves pulled close enough for a kiss. It was a shockwave that poured right through them and had them melting within that touch. For a moment, they were more than happy to return that kiss just going with the moment in whatever way they could.
Only when Anneke pulled back slightly could she see that Saima was a little embarrassed, their gaze at her being somewhat sheepish as if genuinely not expecting that to happen.
“I don’t know what that was for but – thanks anyway.” A little mischievous grin appeared on their face as if letting something replay their head. If it never happened again, at least there was that to remember.
😘🍺
A few drinks had Saima feeling fairly relaxed and able to go with whatever. Even in the company of Ivan, they had managed to keep themselves calm and sometimes even get some enjoyment out of the interactions. That was until they felt his lips against theirs in a truly surprising kiss that had thrown them off guard.
Pulling back after he had done, they stepped back giving him a wary look. “….I. I. what was that for?” They were more confused than anything else, not able to reflect on how it had felt. It was too shocking the person actually kissing them to process the kiss itself.
🕊
🕊 = What makes you feel free?
Saam:
“When I have sovereignty and feel like my people can make decisions for themselves. Having independence seems to help a whole lot with that sort of thing.
But otherwise, being in the forest or out in the sea also tends to help me feel a lot freer. And nowadays presenting in a way that I see more reflects how I’d like to be seen helps me feel pretty free as well.“
Mun:
Idk. Being alive. Being out of school- being able to go home from work and just do whatever the hell I want maybe?
How does one pronounce your URL and what does it mean?
The phrase is “see kes otsib teadmist” In terms of how it is broken up.
I’d do an attempt at pronunciation for you but I’m in a coffee shop and am in no condition to do that at the moment. Though this guide might help you.
The phrase means “One who seeks knowledge” roughly. I thought the phrase was quite applicable to how Saam tends to operate in a way of perpetually trying to learn.
◎ Is there anyone who’s acceptance has meant more to you? Like you were worried about telling them who you are?
They remain silent for a few moments. This question has struck them at a place they weren’t really certain they wanted to touch. “I .. I don’t really know how to answer that. I was incredibly worried in general about telling people. I still am, actually. In in the midst of telling people, I’ve had to temper my expectations and prepare myself for people not understanding or wanting to get it. And I’ve been fighting with the internal feeling of maybe I shouldn’t tell – but.. people would notice the change. So I’d might as well be upfront about it.
I’ve been lucky in that those I’ve told have been pretty good about it. So I’m pretty thankful for that. I guess. .. I guess those I was used to being affectionate with’s acceptance means a lot because I did have a fear because I don’t fit within the frame of who they usually go for that it would be the end. I’ve read that is something that happens to people so.. I was prepared for that to happen. I’m still not certain that it won’t. ”
Seekesotsibteadmist 