Shadow – What is your biggest regret?

    “I dare not speak my biggest regret. I haven’t told anyone of it ever and I have no intentions of starting now. ” They pause with a sigh before glancing away. “But another big regret is just not having the opportunity to fight more for maintaining my independence before the mid 20th century…happened to say the least.”

i believe,,, u reblogged the meme?? ok but either way I don’t need a meme to come here & tell you that you’re?? wonderful??? i really adore Saam. They’re not like only nice because they’ve got layers & spunk & your occasional sprinkling of insecurity but they’re still such a sweetheart? LIke you do a wonderful job I am #Blessed to be able to rp w u. Saam’s hilarious & charming & adorable & you do a great job of bringing them to life with quirks & aspirations & everything that makes ppl human. A+

[I’m glad that you really enjoy them. I just want to make sure people get an idea of the layers there are to them and it seems to be coming through.  So I appreciate hearing this thank you so much!]

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    “Ludwig. Interesting character that one is. Of course, there’s always a little left over wariness from the difficulties I’ve had with him. I think those feelings are going to linger for a little bit longer. 

But he is a good worker. I will give him credit for that. He’s incredibly dedicated to what he wants to accomplish and that’s a trait that I admire. So good for him for doing that. It makes him not all that bad to work with honestly. 

I do wonder about him sometimes. I think he has a lot of things that go unsaid that maybe should be expressed sometime. I don’t know for sure – but the way that he carries himself implies there is much more than the strict taskmaster that people want to portray him as. But how much more I can find out remains to be seen.”

marching-man:

Ludwig was relieved to see that the other did not seem to be more than mildly surprised by Blackie’s presence. It would’ve been even worse, in hindsight, if the poor individual had been afraid of dogs. Of course, that didn’t make it any less embarrassing. Ludwig prided himself in having well-trained dogs, and well, this was not maintaining that image.

Encouraging the small dog to come out from its hiding spot, Ludwig’s tone was surprisingly soft and gentle given his stressed demeanor. It never did to yell at dogs, he knew. Right now would be no exception.

“Yes, he’s usually very well behaved though I suppose most people say such things about their pets,” Ludwig glanced up briefly to make eye contact, “This is a bit of an embarrassment. Though… are you new to this area? I can’t say I’d seen you before recently.”

Seeing the man take on a surprisingly gentle tone towards the dog was somehow even more endearing. not that Saam would readily admit, that, it seemed somewhat inappropriate. Nonetheless, they were content to watch the other try and get the dog out from behind their chair.

“Hah. Yeah I suppose it is a common refrain but I tend to think it’s still true. Even well-behaved animals can have their moments at no fault of their caretaker.“ Saam looks back before giving a small nod.

“Indeed I am new. Moved here for a job and have been living her for maybe a few months now? So I’m still getting used to the place and doing some exploring in my spare time.“

marching-man:

Ludwig paused as the realization that his shoe was untied dawned upon him. A minor annoyance, but Ludwig preferred not to go on with it undone for fear of tripping over his own feet. It was simply unfortunate that it had had to happen right in front of the house where there was an occupant obviously enjoying themself on the deck.

Looping the leashes that held his three dogs around his wrist, he bent to tie his shoe, only to realize that one of the dogs was pulling. Before he could stop it, the leash came loose and the dog was spiriting towards the poor, unsuspecting individual on the deck, yapping as it went. Cursing under his breath, he stood again, adjusting his hold on the other two dogs, before moving towards the porch.

Thankfully, it had only been the dachshund, Blackie, who was slightly more prone to misbehaving, but also significantly smaller than the other two. Of course, not that that made it any less embarrassing.

“My apologies, he’s usually not like this,” Ludwig was nearly at the steps, “I’ll just get him and be on my way. I’m very sorry. But, ah, he’s friendly–” And Blackie was hiding behind their chair now. Ludwig cursed internally.

Saamuel’s relaxing sight of the running individual was sharply interrupted by the sound of a dog running right their way. It threw them off and made them jump just a little bit in surprise. Once the dog was there though, Saam tried to be as friendly as possible cooing at the adorable pet for a moment.

The plus side, Saam supposed was the fact that a certain individual was now approaching the porch upon which they sat. “Ah. No need to apologize, I suppose he just got a little excited for once. Absolutely precious though. ” They go to pet the dog being the chair which was a little responsive and slowly coming from behind the chair, although probably not at the rate that Ludwig would have preferred.

“I don’t know what got into him but I promise it’s not a problem. Just a little bit of a surprise – that’s all.“ Saam gave a small reassuring smile, as if trying to make the point that this wasn’t a big deal in the least. That it would all be fine entirely.

I like you / I hate you / I dislike you/ I love you / You are family / I would take a bullet for you / I would shoot you / I would lie to your face / I would say something cruel to you on purpose / I would say something cruel to you accidentally  / I would cheat on you / I would physically hurt you / You annoy me/ You amuse me / I’d laugh at you / I’d laugh with you / I’d manipulate you / You scare me / You confuse me / I wish I knew you better / I trust you / I don’t trust you / You inspire me / I consider you an equal / You are beneath me / You’re better than me / I would trust you with my life / I think you’re mean / I think you’re petty / I think you’re childish / I think you’re smart / I think you’re stupid / I think you’re a bad person / I think you’re a good person / I’m not sure what kind of person you are / I wish you would listen to me / I want to make you proud / I wish you would notice me / I want to impress you / I would hurt other people for you / I’m not sure how to make you happy / I’m a bad influence on you / You deserve better than me / We make a great team / I’d have a one night stand with you / I’d have a relationship with you / I would marry you / I fantasize about our life together / I would trust you with my most treasured belonging / I would tell you my darkest secrets / You disgust me / You intimidate me / I hope I intimidate you / I’d hug you / I’d let you hug me  / I’m scared of losing you / I don’t think you like me / I want to be better for you / I respect you / I don’t respect you / You’re my mentor / You’re my friend / You’re my best friend / I have a crush on you / I could easily watch you die / I’d get drunk with you / I’d party with you / I’d comfort you / I’d prank you / I’d spike your drink / I’d act behind your back / I’d abandon you / I’d hurt you to get what I want / I would choose my happiness over yours / I would choose your happiness over mine / I despise how much I care for you / I need you / I’m dependent on you / I don’t know what I’d do without you / I’m scared of you leaving me / I’d give my life for you / You frustrate me / I’d call for you in a time of need / I would protect you / I’d visit you in hospital / I’d carry you if you were hurt / I’d feel guilty if I hurt you / I’d let you be near me when I am vulnerable / I’d ignore a phone call from you / I’d call you at 3am / I’d break you out of jail / I’d get angry at you / I would shout at you / You’re too loud / You’re too quiet / You’re too sensitive / You can’t take a joke / You embarrass me / I feel nothing for you / You’re reckless / You’re bossy / You bore me / I would ask your advice / I would blame you for something I did / I would cry in your arms / You have the power to hurt me more than anyone else /

Send me a ★ and I’ll bold what applies to your muse.

rockabilysplit:

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I like you / I hate you / I dislike you/ I love you / You
are family / I would take a bullet for you / I would shoot you / I would lie to
your face / I would say something cruel to you on purpose / I would say
something cruel to you accidentally  / I
would cheat on you / I would physically hurt you / You annoy me/ You amuse me /
I’d laugh at you / I’d laugh with you / I’d manipulate you / You scare me / You
confuse me / I wish I knew you better / I trust you / I don’t trust you / You
inspire me / I consider you an equal / You are beneath me / You’re better than
me / I would trust you with my life / I think you’re mean / I think you’re
petty / I think you’re childish / I think you’re smart / I think you’re stupid
/ I think you’re a bad person / I think you’re a good person / I’m not sure
what kind of person you are / I wish you would listen to me / I want to make
you proud / I wish you would notice me / I want to impress you / I would hurt
other people for you / I’m not sure how to make you happy / I’m a bad influence
on you / You deserve better than me / We make a great team / I’d have a one
night stand with you / I’d have a relationship with you / I would marry you / I
fantasize about our life together / I would trust you with my most treasured
belonging / I would tell you my darkest secrets / You disgust me / You
intimidate me / I hope I intimidate you / I’d hug you / I’d let you hug me  / I’m scared of losing you / I don’t think you
like me / I want to be better for you / I respect you / I don’t respect you /
You’re my mentor / You’re my friend / You’re my best friend / I have a crush on
you / I could easily watch you die / I’d get drunk with you / I’d party with
you / I’d comfort you / I’d prank you / I’d spike your drink / I’d act behind
your back / I’d abandon you / I’d hurt you to get what I want / I would choose
my happiness over yours / I would choose your happiness over mine / I despise
how much I care for you / I need you / I’m dependent on you / I don’t know what
I’d do without you / I’m scared of you leaving me / I’d give my life for you / You
frustrate me / I’d call for you in a time of need / I would protect you / I’d
visit you in hospital / I’d carry you if you were hurt / I’d feel guilty if I
hurt you / I’d let you be near me when I am vulnerable / I’d ignore a phone
call from you / I’d call you at 3am / I’d break you out of jail / I’d get angry
at you / I would shout at you / You’re too loud / You’re too quiet / You’re too
sensitive / You can’t take a joke / You embarrass me / I feel nothing for you /
You’re reckless / You’re bossy / You bore me / I would ask your advice / I
would blame you for something I did / I would cry in your arms / You have the
power to hurt me more than anyone else /

marching-man:

A proper morning routine should always include heading out for a run first thing. Of course, afterwards, there would be breakfast, showers and feeding the dogs to attend to, but a run always came first in Ludwig’s opinion. Today was no exception.

To be frank, most days he didn’t really bother to grab a shirt, or really, much of anything save his shorts, his dogs, socks and sneakers, plus his phone in the morning. But to him, it wasn’t really anything out of the ordinary. It was early, and it wasn’t as if anyone in the neighborhood really minded. Or so he assumed.

Damp with sweat, but thoroughly engrossed in his music, Ludwig jogged his way past the house where the house’s inhabitant always seemed to be enjoying their breakfast on their porch.

Odd, but Ludwig didn’t really stop to consider.

Idly humming as they enjoyed the nice weather and breakfast was a good way to past time. But tell-tale footsteps caught Saam’s attention immediately. It had been a routine of some sort to try and catch the sight of someone running by every single morning. Especially since the man seemed to consistently doing this shirtless. A special appearance, indeed. 

For what it’s worth, Saam couldn’t deny they had a nice aesthetic appreciation for many they had encountered since their move. It’s just that – they were often to do much about these attractions than just daydream. After all, they weren’t exactly a conventional being in the way they presented and lived. It would naturally be a bit challenging to sort out who’d be willing to pursue someone like them in a new place.

Eyes turn back to the sidewalk where they caught of the rather handsome shirtless man passing by, too engrossed to notice them. As far as Saam was concerned it was kind of nice to not go noticed all that much. So they could casually observe with their coffee the way that body seemed to move in constant motion. Soaking in the details that they were starting to memorize by now.

Ah, the wonders of the human body. They thought to themselves in catching the sight once more as if it was just another day.

@marching-man

Early morning in Berlin.

Moving for work had always been something of an interesting situation. But it’s not one Saamuel hadn’t faced before for internships or something during their schooling. But now, they were living in what was truly a big city and that was something to get truly lost in. The busy days of working and spending time at music shows was more than enough to keep them on the move. Perhaps, it was starting to feel a little bit like home.

It was one of those morning days that they found themselves sitting outside. Drinking coffee and eating a little bit of breakfast before starting off for the day. Would they end up at work? Inevitably. But one of the best things about being up in the morning hadn’t happened yet. A special appearance, so to speak.

 And so the Estonian would be more than willing to wait – idly runnin their hands through the longer side of their hair as they sat.