landforces:

[ text: Wall-e ]  I guess that’s the whole point and mindset to face things. “ I’ve gone through worse and I am still standing here”, and once you are aware of that whatever they might think or say about you doesn’t matter.

[text] Hm right. Right. I appreciated you talking through this. It helped a lot to clear things up really.

[text] So thanks for that. I’ll gladly get you a beer or something some time.

💭

“You know, he’s really good at getting right to the core of why maybe it’s not worth giving that much of a damn about other’s opinions. Because, a lot of the time, it’s just not worth the energy. So I have to admit, he’s pretty good for clearing up what feels irrational from time to time. 

Guess I’m kind of grateful for that.”

landforces:

[ text: Wall-e ] As you said, that was nothing that was not present before, right? But as for now it seems to become more…hm, intense? Is that what you want to say?

[ text: Wall-e ] Anything different has happened?

[text] Right. Yes, intense. That’s definitely the feeling I’ve been experiencing. An intensifying of these thoughts.

[text] I guess.. I’ve been presenting in a slightly different way. And so I expect the response to be different – it’s just a little scary at the same time.

[text] I needed to change to be more comfortable with myself but it is still a risk I’m taking. So it is what it is. Just trying to not feel as intensely on edge in public.

@landforces

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[text] Right, right.

[text] I’ve just been really strange about going out around people lately.

[text] It’s been making me feel really vulnerable and strange so I have to be especially careful.

[text] Not that I wasn’t before – but I think my paranoid worries are surfacing in small ways. Like I’m constantly being scrutinized.