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  It was a matter of course that they’d be willing to meet up with Jules for a few drinks. It took a little time for Saima to get there but the travel hadn’t been that big of a deal. Maybe it was necessary for Saima to see a friendly face after the last few days. They entered the bar while keeping an eye out for their friend who had texted them the address of the bar. 

Finally seeing an unmistakable head of curly blond hair, Saima smiled a bit to themselves before they went to greet the other.

“It’s been a minute, no?”

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   They remained quiet for a few moments. “You make for a pretty good friend of mine. I do enjoy your company and I do admire that you have a presence about you. You’re a bright, attractive, creative person who I just am glad to have met and gotten to know a little bit.” There is a bit of a hesitation in the way that they speak as if they are trying to stop. “I had been attracted to you. You’re a good person to be around and I will always be glad to be friendly with you. ” There’s an unspoken but that they are actively avoiding talking about. 

“…I feel like I want to be completely honest but I get choked up and unable to speak every time I try. So, I will not go there.  It’s for the best that I don’t. ”

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  Saima had been glad to refill Juliaen’s glass, especially since they were sharing some of their personal favorite’s drink. A nice sweet, smooth liquor local to their place. Once poured, they take their own seat, happy to relax once more while returning  small smile at Jules. “Indeed, it’s been some time. I’ve been well enough – busy with work and just..taking care of myself a little bit. Been working on a lot of music lately. Finishing a nice project that I hope will turn out well. And yourself? What kind of mischief have you been up to?”

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A message my muse wrote after not having written for a while, possibly because they lost the journal or because they have been busy with other things. (Feel free to include part of the previous entry for perspective.)

So..it’s been a little bit of time. I’ve not been up to writing all that much, I’ve been putting a lot of my feelings out into music – which has lead to some cool results. But I have to admit, I’m at a strange place in my life right now.

And while I’d post this somewhere, there are too many witnesses among people I actually know for that to be a good idea. 

Although I’m feeling ..okay, I’m also feeling really ambivalent right now. Especially about other people these days. I, I’ve been withdrawing from being particularly interested in others. Platonically, that stays on since it’s always good to have friends- but I’ve been purposely reluctant to really get invested in any other way. I’m only going to go where I’m wanted.

And if I’m not wanted, well. There’s no point in trying now is there? There’s something bittersweet about that realization, but I need that for my own sake of sanity. Otherwise, I’ve been really dealing with normal work stresses and dealing with being in public..It still is a bit scary going out in the world presenting as I do but I .. I feel the need to do it. It’s for my own sake, it’s been a long time coming and although I still feel a dread in the pit of my heart, it’s necessary and it feels much better than pretending.

I am so very tired of pretending. I’ve had to do that entirely too often within my existence only to survive. Can I not be a true self for once? 

Otherwise, this leitmotif might be finished. I’ve been working on that for months, but I’ll have to listen to it a few times before I can actually show it to anyone else. I promised at least one person will get to hear it – so I should at least make good on that, no matter how tempted I am to sequester it away.

[ teach ]

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–  your muse taking control of mine’s hand , arm , hips , etc . to make sure they do something correctly .

      “As you wish.” They are nothing if not willing to follow suggestions. Saima is here to learn after all. “As you are the expert, surely you know best.” With that, they follow Jules’ guidance in an attempt to make sure that they are picking this up right.

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devotedecay:

❥      NON – SEXUAL   ACTS   OF   DOMINANCE . 

feel free to edit or elaborate as you please .  
( add  ‘ reverse ‘  to your message if you’d like to see how my muse would perform the action ) .
otherwise , send in one of these for my muse’s reaction to   …

  • [ lit ]  your muse lighting a cigarette , spliff , etc. for mine . 

  • [ order ]  your muse ordering for mine at a restaurant or bar .

  • [ guide ]  your muse putting a hand on mine’s back to lead them .

  • [ pay ]  your muse paying for mine at a store , bar , restaurant , etc . ( you can specify where or for what . )

  • [ open ]  your muse opening a door for mine .

  • [ dry ]  your muse drying mine off with a towel after a shower , bath , swimming , etc . 

  • [ instruct ]  your muse giving mine instructions / telling them what to do . 

  • [ groom ]  your muse adjusting mine’s appearance , such as straightening a tie , fixing their hair , or buttoning their shirt for them , etc . 

  • [ direct ]  your muse taking mine by the chin and telling them to look yours in the eye .

  • [ disagree ]  your muse sternly telling mine  ‘ no ‘ .

  • [ rest ]  your muse resting their arm over mine’s shoulder / s .

  • [ clean ]  your muse cleaning a smudge of something off mine’s cheek , forehead , etc .   feel free to specify what and how . 

  • [ answer ]  your muse answering a question meant for mine . 

  • [ coat ]   your muse holds mine’s coat out for them while they put it on .

  • [ pilot ]  your muse taking mine by the arm , hand , shoulder , etc . to lead them . 

  • [ stare ]  your muse staring mine down . 

  • [ placement ]  your muse telling mine to sit down .

  • [ teach ]  your muse taking control of mine’s hand , arm , hips , etc . to make sure they do something correctly .  

  • [ patience ]  your muse telling mine to be patient .

  • [ tears ]  your muse wiping away mine’s tears .

  • [ swat ]  your muse swatting mine’s hand away from something they’re not supposed to touch .  

  • [

    jewelry  ]  your muse clasping a piece of jewelry for mine , such as a necklace , or earrings . 

  • [ enough ]  your muse commanding mine to stop talking . 

  • [ retrieve ]  your muse requesting or ordering mine to retrieve them something .

  • [ invite ]  your muse inviting mine to sit on their lap .

  • [ lean ]  your muse inviting mine to lean into their side while they’re sitting or laying together . 

  • [ calm ]   your muse telling mine to  ‘ just breathe ‘ .

  • [ scold ]  your muse scolding mine for something .

  • [ comfort ]  your muse pulling mine into a reassuring hug .

  • [ approval ]  your muse complimenting mine on a choice they’ve made .

  • [ beckon ]  your muse beckoning mine to them without speaking . 

  • [ laces ]  your muse lacing , tying , or zipping something for mine , such as shoes , a dress , or a jacket , etc .

  • [ stay ]  your muse telling mine to stay in the car . 

  • [ defend ]  your muse defending mine’s reputation , dignity , or safety for them . 

  • [ feed ]  your muse feeding mine something , feel free to specify what .

  • [ volume ]  your muse demanding mine speak louder .

  • [ read ]  your muse reading something to mine .

  • [ refill ]  your muse refilling mine’s glass for them . 

  • [ possessive ]  your muse resting their hand on mine’s leg or the small of their back while they’re sitting beside each other . 

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blcemetjes:

“It’s strange. As children we weren’t really encouraged to colour in as much as it’s done today, but it’s still really enjoyable. It makes me wonder, do we develop interests in tandem with our people? And if so, which interests are entirely our own?” 

  “Right. I am not entirely certain about that. I do feel a few of our interests come from the traditions of our people and are closely associated with achievements there. But I do suspect we pick up some interests independent of that. Why that is, who knows…”

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I would kill for you. • I would make love to you. • I would fuck you. • I would protect you. • I would hurt you for a selfish cause. • I wish we had more in common. • I want nothing to do with you. • I want to see you cry. • I want a future with you. • I want to destroy your future. • I do not care what you do. • I am indifferent towards you. • I want children with you. • I love you ( platonically ) • I love you ( romantically ) • I love you like family. • You are my family. • I could fall in love with you. • I would lie for you. • I would fight by your side. • I will never let you go. • I would hold you while you cried. • I would hug you. • I want to kiss you. • I would stay by your bedside if you were ill. • I want to fall asleep with you in my arms. • I want to forget you. • I will never forget you. • I only want to make you proud. • I wish I could make you happy. • You deserve nothing. • I will never forgive you. • You confuse me.