[haha that would be a fun vlog for them to run. Fun random experiments with a reminder to not pull this nonsense at home.]
Tag: asks
❛ I want you to be happy. ❜
“Thanks, Berwald.” Saamuel gave a small smile that was both grateful and a little bit melancholic. “Sometimes I don’t even know if I’m familiar with what it’s like to be happy. It all feels like a quickly fading blur. To the point that I question whether it was real. But..I guess that doesn’t mean I can’t make the most of good times while I have them, right?”
Saam! Ah, yoga is next Wednesday, but I figured we could do lunch?
Hello, hello.
Ah yes, the yoga. But sure – lunch sounds delightful. I could always use an excuse to get out and about somewhere.
☢ = falling over .
“Oh dear, can I help you getting up?” Saam had already moved to try to be of assistance when seeing Lotte take a fall. Goodness knows how annoying it was to tumble when not intending to do so in the least.
5, 7, 9
5. If you could give your muse one gift, what would you give them?
Oh I don’t really know. I’d maybe give them a cool theremin. They would have a good time tinkering around with that and making some really cool, strange music.
7. If you could “borrow” one aspect of your muse and apply it to yourself or your own life, what would you borrow?
…..I had an answer but I realize, I don’t want to go there lol and I realized I actually didn’t want that aspect really. Instead, I guess being able to have a solid data administrator gig to work with. Or the drive to pursue music more. I’ll take their musical ability for a bit. That would be rad.
9.Do you enjoy putting your muse through angst? What do you think would break their heart the most?
I kind of do and I kind of don’t. I love writing it because it means I get to surface things Saam may not otherwise reveal – and show the kind of layers that the character has. I don’t because it often fucking hurts writing that – it gets me really sad when you realize how…truly not feeling great this character often is.
I think I think..it would break their heart the most to be abandoned again by those they care for. To be left behind and not ever have the chance to try again with people. I think they legitimately fear that happening and while they don’t want to be right about not being valued – being proved right is what the expect and would break their heart for real. Since they’ve been through it so many times.
4. If you could tell your muse one thing, what would you tell them?
If I could tell Saam one thing, maybe just to take more credit sometimes. They don’t nearly give themselves the credit they deserve and I’m sure my advice probably wouldn’t get to them much since ..this habit of theirs is hard-pressed into them over the years. But I’d suggest just trying to be a little kinder to yourself because it’s not worth having yourself as an enemy as well.
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Saamuel is totally silent for a moment or two, as if trying to sort things out.
“Yeah, I uh… I don’t know. I definitely enjoy seeing him when possible and I would definitely be up for doing some gardening. He seems very interesting and I do like his presence. So kicking it some time in a fun environment might be cool. Pretty solid guy honestly.”
A pause as if there’s something on the tip of their tongue that is not being said.
”I mean… ah. Nah. Not even worth going there actually. Some thoughts are best left incomplete. Jan’s good company, that’s all.”
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“You know, he’s really good at getting right to the core of why maybe it’s not worth giving that much of a damn about other’s opinions. Because, a lot of the time, it’s just not worth the energy. So I have to admit, he’s pretty good for clearing up what feels irrational from time to time.
Guess I’m kind of grateful for that.”
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“I really want nothing more than for Jaakko to actually be able to enjoy the feelings that he clearly has. But I can understand how difficult that really can be.”
“Hippos are hungry, hungry! And you are considerably larger than a small piece of lettuce!”
“Well yes. Although I doubt, they will get much sustenance from the likes of me.” A gesture to the relatively lean build they have, a morbid joke they are making.
“But of course, that’s all the more reason to be careful around them.They are…fierce creatures from what I hear.”
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