🔪 – melee weapons
I’ve had to get quite good with a sword. It’s only because of my proficiency with it, that I’ve been able to stay alive more than once.
As of more recently, I’ve gotten good at using knives and tend to keep a smaller one on my person on a regular basis. It’s just a thing of habit at this point.
making gifts
“I suppose I’m pretty alright at it. I tend to be able to keep in mind what people like so I can either use what I can do to make something. Or find something appropriate. Otherwise, I do have a few standbys that make for pretty decent gifts for most people just in case.”
“I could actually make a decent sized list now that I think about it. But to give a few names – Jaakko, Lilli, Emma, Berwald, Lu, Jackie.. those are a nice group of people who have been helping me out. Listening to me and affirming me especially lately when I’ve been needing that kind of support in taking what can be seen as a ‘risky’ action.”
“A positive thing? I suppose my willingness to learn more. Being open to learning and change has been a good motivator for me to want to do more, explore more and just come into a better sense of self. A bad thing – probably my self-critical nature. While I’m always open to learn more, I also feel a strong obligation to still do more because I do… I do feel like I’m not enough and may not ever be enough. And so that drives me a lot more than I often admit.”
“The best news?… I guess it would be knowing that my people will be safe and continue to grow and make more progress. I’d love to see more news about that. Because that’s really what I want in the end. To see the people of my home have good lives and sustain themselves.”
“Yeah, sure. I can admit that. You’re stunning and that is a simple fact at this point really.”
Well. [They just chuckle for a bit in response. So it’s those kinds of questions today hm?]
You’re not wrong. I do ..I do like that sort of thing, yes.
Honestly, not that often. With a history like mine, there isn’t a whole lot to reminiscent about. It only leaves me bitter as hell about current circumstances so I don’t see the point in doing it too much.But I do look back sometimes, just so evaluate lessons learned and steel myself for whatever challenges I may face in the future.
If I had known, I probably would have been more..argumentative towards those in control of my homeland in the 1930s, maybe I would have a chance to fight back against the impending loss of control- but.. maybe it wouldn’t have been worth it. I just.. I just don’t like the idea of having loss sovereignty without a fight.
I like you / I hate you / I dislike you/ I love you / You are family / I would take a bullet for you / I would shoot you / I would lie to your face / I would say something cruel to you on purpose / I would say something cruel to you accidentally / I would cheat on you / I would physically hurt you / You annoy me/ You amuse me / I’d laugh at you / I’d laugh with you / I’d manipulate you / You scare me / You confuse me / I wish I knew you better / I trust you / I don’t trust you / You inspire me / I consider you an equal / You are beneath me / You’re better than me / I would trust you with my life / I think you’re mean / I think you’re petty / I think you’re childish / I think you’re smart / I think you’re stupid / I think you’re a bad person / I think you’re a good person / I’m not sure what kind of person you are / I wish you would listen to me / I want to make you proud / I wish you would notice me / I want to impress you / I would hurt other people for you / I’m not sure how to make you happy / I’m a bad influence on you / You deserve better than me / We make a great team / I’d have a one night stand with you / I’d have a relationship with you / I would marry you / I fantasize about our life together / I would trust you with my most treasured belonging / I would tell you my darkest secrets / You disgust me / You intimidate me / I hope I intimidate you / I’d hug you / I’d let you hug me / I’m scared of losing you / I don’t think you like me / I want to be better for you / I respect you / I don’t respect you / You’re my mentor / You’re my friend / You’re my best friend / I have a crush on you / I could easily watch you die / I’d get drunk with you / I’d party with you / I’d comfort you / I’d prank you / I’d spike your drink / I’d act behind your back / I’d abandon you / I’d hurt you to get what I want / I would choose my happiness over yours / I would choose your happiness over mine / I despise how much I care for you / I need you / I’m dependent on you / I don’t know what I’d do without you / I’m scared of you leaving me / I’d give my life for you / You frustrate me / I’d call for you in a time of need / I would protect you / I’d visit you in hospital / I’d carry you if you were hurt / I’d feel guilty if I hurt you / I’d let you be near me when I am vulnerable / I’d ignore a phone call from you / I’d call you at 3am / I’d break you out of jail / I’d get angry at you / I would shout at you / You’re too loud / You’re too quiet / You’re too sensitive / You can’t take a joke / You embarrass me / I feel nothing for you / You’re reckless / You’re bossy / You bore me / I would ask your advice / I would blame you for something I did / I would cry in your arms / You have the power to hurt me more than anyone else /
I like you / I hate you / I dislike you/ I love you / You are family / I would take a bullet for you / I would shoot you / I would lie to your face / I would say something cruel to you on purpose / I would say something cruel to you accidentally / I would cheat on you / I would physically hurt you / You annoy me/ You amuse me / I’d laugh at you / I’d laugh with you / I’d manipulate you / You scare me / You confuse me / I wish I knew you better / I trust you / I don’t trust you / You inspire me / I consider you an equal / You are beneath me / You’re better than me / I would trust you with my life / I think you’re mean / I think you’re petty / I think you’re childish / I think you’re smart / I think you’re stupid / I think you’re a bad person / I think you’re a good person / I’m not sure what kind of person you are / I wish you would listen to me / I want to make you proud / I wish you would notice me / I want to impress you / I would hurt other people for you / I’m not sure how to make you happy / I’m a bad influence on you / You deserve better than me / We make a great team / I’d have a one night stand with you / I’d have a relationship with you / I would marry you / I fantasize about our life together / I would trust you with my most treasured belonging / I would tell you my darkest secrets / You disgust me / You intimidate me / I hope I intimidate you / I’d hug you / I’d let you hug me / I’m scared of losing you / I don’t think you like me / I want to be better for you / I respect you / I don’t respect you / You’re my mentor / / I have a crush on you / I could easily watch you die / I’d get drunk with you / I’d party with you / I’d comfort you / I’d prank you / I’d spike your drink / I’d act behind your back / I’d abandon you / I’d hurt you to get what I want / I would choose my happiness over yours / I would choose your happiness over mine / I despise how much I care for you / I need you / I’m dependent on you / I don’t know what I’d do without you / I’m scared of you leaving me / I’d give my life for you / You frustrate me / I’d call for you in a time of need / I would protect you / I’d visit you in hospital / I’d carry you if you were hurt / I’d feel guilty if I hurt you / I’d let you be near me when I am vulnerable / I’d ignore a phone call from you / I’d call you at 3am / I’d break you out of jail / I’d get angry at you / I would shout at you / You’re too loud / You’re too quiet / You’re too sensitive / You can’t take a joke / You embarrass me / I feel nothing for you / You’re reckless / You’re bossy / You bore me / I would ask your advice / I would blame you for something I did / I would cry in your arms / You have the power to hurt me more than anyone else /
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