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3. How do they position themselves in a group? Do they like to be the center of attention, or do they hang back at the edges of a crowd?

Saima has always been more of an observer, it’s been something that they’ve carried since they were very young. They much prefer to be along the sidelines because drawing too much attention to themselves may cause them to want to disappear or suddenly excuse themselves out of discomfort. Of course, they’ve been able to handle themselves professionally for a cause they get involved with. But generally, they don’t mind being on the edge of a crowd.

Unless they are doing something musical, in that case – they don’t really mind attention since they are sharing a passion that they care for.

13. How do they greet the world — what is their typical attitude towards life? How does it differ in different circumstances, or towards different subjects? Why do they take these attitudes, and why do they change? How do these tend to be expressed?

Despite a certain wariness that comes from seeing what history has wrought on their land and the world at large, Saima still does have a certain kind of curiosity in the way they approach the world. This comes from originally not being all that associated with this realm and so they are still fascinated with the inevitable changes. 

Although they’ve become a little more familiar with what the world requires in using a physical form to navigate it, they still have a detached perspective that allows them to just be willing to listen to the experiences of those who have been a lot more..enmeshed with all the happenings.

Saima’s general focus is finding the mysterious and mythic in modern life these days. Since they take a lot of inspiration and energy from such things. So they do have a passion for finding such aspects of life when they can.  

14. What do they care deeply about? What kind of loyalties, commitments, moral codes, life philosophies, passions, callings, or spirituality and faith do they have? How do these tend to be expressed?

They care primarily about the land and people of Estonia – since it is place where the mythos of their origin has called them to look after. And specifically, the way that myths from way back can continue to influence the lives of those around them. It’s been their calling that to be a part of this realm, they will bring a touch of magic to their surroundings in subtle ways. If that means inspiring those in the midst of a fight, so be it – if it means volunteering and giving off that vibe of being from beyond this world a little bit, so be it. They are determined to help and be a useful presence for as long as they can. 

21. What kind of relationships do they tend to intentionally seek out versus actually cultivate? What kind of social contact do they prefer, and why?

Saima rarely intentionally seeks out relationships. Although, they do tend to like finding people and beings that they can learn from – that they can observe how they play a role around here. So they have been known to fit themselves into situations in order to learn about how they can help the people around them and what role that requires them to play. 

In terms of social contact, they do like making friends although – it is a complicated process because they are not certain to tell the real truth about their existence. So it’s playing the role of someone who is more familiar with that life than they really are. It’s still a question that has been nagging at them, since it’s getting harder for them to want to hide that part of themselves. 

Over time they manage to cultivate relationships with those who have also been around for a long time albeit for different reasons. And they’ve honestly learned about how to best fit into that environment from being around such entities.

   “Obviously the second World War and the aftermath of all that. To be frank, the World War didn’t end in my experience and those of this area until the early 1990s. And I’m still trying to move on from the impact of that. It’ll take years although… I guess things have been going alright so far. 

 So while it might have been an obvious choice to not have experienced that..I can’t help but wish the people hadn’t been put in that situation. I really wouldn’t wish that on anyone else.” But it almost felt inevitable due to the world’s obvious lack of care for the fate of smaller nations like them at the time. It’s almost like they were collateral for the others. At least that is the feeling that they get.

   “I suppose I can’t say most of my life, can I? Since honestly, that’s the simplest answer – most of my existence has been…unpleasant to say the least. But let’s dig out some examples. Great Northern War. I could have definitely gone with out that for sure. Of course, there’s no telling how it would have turned out if it hadn’t happened but.. maybe being under the control of certain people could have been avoided. Probably not, but still..who knows.”

Have you ever lied to get your way?

   “Yes. I’m not proud of it. But I’ve lied to subvert rules and get access to things that I might not have otherwise. In a time of deprivation, it sometimes makes sense to try and see what you can really get if the opportunity affords it. Obviously, I’d prefer not to have to do that so often these days.”

Do you love to cuddle?

   “Well, I certainly enjoy it from time to time. With someone I care for, I tend to want to cuddle often. But I try not to ask for it too much because I know they would have other things to take care of. And the last thing I’d want to be is an annoyance.”

☞ would they like themselves as a character? why or why not?

  “I mean, I don’t know if I would make for much of a protagonist. I feel like at best, maybe I could be a good side character in a story. I think too much of me could end in not having so much story especially since these days I’m much more inclined to mind my own stuff and mostly be on the sidelines unless outside forces drag me into something. But if I were a character, I suppose I could be alright.”

💯 What is my muse’s ideal date?

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  While they are flexible to going on dates that tailor towards the interests of their partner at a given time, Saima is weak for a date that involves good music and if the weather allows, a walk in nature somewhere. They find that allowing themselves to relax in somewhere gorgeous is a good way to open up around someone in a different way. And of course, there’s not like a performance to unlock Saima’s passion for creating and hearing the music.

💗 Has my muse ever been in love?

   It’s a difficult question for Saima to answer because they honestly have a hard time grappling with what it even means to be in love. This lack of comprehension leaves them a little confused and nervous about the concept since they are so used to not…being wanted and all that. So if anything, they may have had feelings for people but it has rarely been reciprocated. And they tend to expect that to continue in the future. 

But I suppose Saima has been involved enough times to have fallen for people a couple of times. Even if they can’t super determine what qualifies for that.

    “I’ve had multiple moments over the years where I’ve wondered why the hell I was even here if I can’t all that much for my people. If the things were going to happen despite my protests and efforts, was there a solid for me being around in the first place? It’s a question that I still haven’t answered to this day. It creeps with me in the back of my head. Feeling that what I do doesn’t actually have that much of an impact. ”