[text] Sure, you can call me. I’d be glad to give some advice if I can.
Tag: asks
peach, banana, coconut
peach:
“Can confirm the ear piercings. Have a few markings that resemble tattoos but have been on me ever since I actually took on a physical form a while ago.“
- banana: favorite horror movies?
“Hm, this is an interesting question – but I tend to be fond of psychological thrillers in general. But if I had to choose one right off the bat, I remember enjoying Green Room as a more recent film that I’ve watched. Another favorite is Suspiria, it’s just a gorgeous film in general – the visuals alone are ..magnificent really. “
- coconut: favorite perfume?
“I tend to like somewhat more subtle scents but anything that gives that fresh from the forests or from the sea kind of vibe works well for me.“
nectarine, peach
- nectarine: would you consider yourself an emotional person?
“I’m barely even a person.
But I guess I do have some feelings that I tend to keep private. I’m pretty withdrawn by nature. I wouldn’t consider myself overly outwardly emotional since that’s just not the way that I am. Still working on expressing myself in a more meaningful way though.”
peach
“Yeah, simple ears piercing and a couple of marking like tattoos on my wrists and collarbone. The less I hold on to my sense of ‘human’, they tend to light up actually – which can be cool to witness.“
Peach and coconut?
- peach: do you have any piercings or tattoos?
“My ears are pierced. And I have these tattoo-like markings on my wrists – detailing the sun and the moon, one on each side. I also have a few wreath-like trails going across my collarbone and shoulders. “
- coconut: favorite perfume?
“I don’t think I actually wear much perfume. But I tend to prefer lighter scents that aren’t too overbearing. I could always go for a nice refreshing flora-inspired smell if I had to choose something.“
‘ don’t give up yet. you still have time to fix things. ’
Saima remains quiet for a few moments – as if they are still trying to piece together a reaction to such encouragement. “Perhaps. But this.. this severance from many I’ve known. It might not be something I want to fix. If nothing else, maybe I can work on addressing this need to center those I have no reason to actually be so concerned with. I’m tired. I’m tired of acting like I want to be around those that only remind me how much of a farce it is for me to pretend to be anything other than what I am.” One could say this was a part of them letting their inner spirit show – no longer content to hide themselves for the sake of some…some.. they dare not complete the phrase. It’s not worth going down that line of thought.
It’s just that they are trying to not work on lowering themselves for anyone.
candle light, nightmare.
- candle light: are you an indecisive person?
Not often. I’ve found myself usually able to make decisions fairly quickly when it comes down to it. But of course, I am the kind of person who would also try to see all kinds of angles depending on the course of action I need to decide on. So I at least try to be thoughtful – even when coming to terms with making a decision.
- nightmare: what are you most afraid of?
Maybe people not holding on to stories that help them feel their sense of self. I mean.. I’ll likely be around even if that happens. But I would much rather avoid that happening – it’s always a little scary to see people lose connection with the tales that have formed a large part of their culture in one way or another.
waxing and waning!
- waxing: what is your proudest accomplishment?
Encouraging some people to create and document the stories at least of what they have heard in order to help build a collection of folklore that people can refer to and keep in mind over the years. It was one of my private actions to try and encourage and be a listening ear to those involved in that process.
[Uh. I guess being rewarded for my work in trying to make my grad school at least somewhat more comfortable for other students and keeping an organization alive that might have otherwise went underground for a few years. ]
- waning: what is your biggest regret?
Not feeling able to actually intervene more on the behalf of the people. There are those that might believe I should have – but…it really wouldn’t have been my place. And so I felt the best things I could do was assist those who were suffering whenever I could.
I do regret that the people have had to undergo so much pain over the years. I wouldn’t wish that on most if I could help it.
[….Maybe not getting help for mental issues earlier. Maybe trying to go off meds as a teen because I thought they were no longer actually doing their job.]
Cosmos, sweet dreams, earth
- cosmos: what’s one thing you wish you could say to someone you are no longer friends with?
“This is a really good question actually. Uh. I guess I wish I could say I missed them and I regret not being able to reveal my full self to them when I had the chance. But now that they’re not around anymore, I shouldn’t dwell on that too much. It’s not worthwhile, really.“
- sweet dreams: are you happy?
“Relatively speaking yes. I’m happier than I’ve been in quite a bit – and I’m definitely attributing that to getting back to my roots in terms of who I really am and what role fits me best. By stepping back from pretending to fulfill a function, I’ve definitely felt freer and less constrained which is important.“
- earth: where do you feel most at home?
Liminal spaces where nothing really feels real. But also forests and bogs – natural spaces where I can shed any sense of physicality and take on my true self at least for a few hours at a time. It’s incredibly relaxing to not have to pretend to be anything other than what you are.
I also like being in creative spaces though – when people are working on creating interesting things, that also helps me feel pretty at peace. Since it shows the process of continued mythos-making in the modern era.
🥀 lateee
– a complaint
“Have you ever just not have wanted to be around those that you’ve interacted with for a little while? I’m kind of in that spot – mostly because I’ve been taking on a role off and on for a while that isn’t actually my original purpose. And I just need to step away from that role. It isn’t me, I’m tired of trying to make it be me. And frankly, it just leaves me incredibly alienated from those who assume that I’m like them in any meaningful way – when the truth is far different and probably far stranger than they would have expected.”
✏ // about mythology too !!!
Call them biased but Saima was always one to enjoy a story of mythology. And so hearing Stella read those stories was inherently relaxing. It allowed them to take a moment to drift away from the realm the both of them existed in and back into the times of old. Back into where seemingly impossible things happened every day. Such a thought caused their original eyes to appear – white irises gazing back at Stella, intrigued by the way these tales played out. “I imagine you get the same satisfaction out of reading those stories that I get hearing them.” It’s probably a part of why they’ve felt such a strong kinship with her off the bat.
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