“You’re my best friend. My very best friend and I will always appreciate you because of that. We’ve been friends for a very, very long time and I suspect your friendship will help long into the future. There are moments though, I have to admit that I wish – I wish things had turned out differently, I’ve seen where you’ve managed to get to in the time I did not have. Assistance I did not have. And I have to admit, the loss I may not ever really make up for. That makes me a little envious. I don’t like saying this but it’s true.

However, I can not begrudge what you’ve been through. I know you’ve been through a lot and so I would never discredit that. 

It’s just…

It feels like I’ll always be less than because we’re so close and yet it’s easy for me to feel bargain-bin or not good enough. So if you feel that something’s happened, it’s because I’m dealing with that feeling of inadequacy that arises. I don’t want to be a bother to you, I would never want to be a bother to you.

Maybe we can go out into the forest sometime. That’d be pretty nice.”