sansarika:

Sonia nods all through their response, one hand going to her chin as she absorbs the thought. “That all seems like it’s natural, doesn’t it? I’ve been in your place before, and I can tell you that I haven’t been a stranger to those feelings as well.” That much is true. Something in the other nation’s words had found its frequency, and a deep breath escapes her as she contemplates the thoughts. “I don’t think there’s much I really can say, but that you must wait and see how things end for you Wise words won’t bring about the end of things. You’ve done yourself good, though, by taking your words with you to the end.”

“That’s fair. But I appreciate you listening anyway. Sometimes, it’s necessary to just get these thoughts out to someone willing to care at least for a few moments at a time.“ Although, there wasn’t too much further that could b said, Saima had come away with a lot to think about and a little bit of reassurance which was useful from time to time. “It seems like the best thing to do is keep moving forward and see where it all plays out.“

sansarika:

@seekesotsibteadmist  ( × )

“If what I have to say makes you feel any better about it, if you truly believe that you must get what you deserve, then it seems you only deserve good things. Not many of our ‘colleagues’ have done so much work towards their own good as you have, not in recent years.” She lets out a sigh in turn. Hopefully, she could get through to them despite how vague she was being. “You’ve ventured out there, you have. But you’ve done it for yourself. No one should blame you for wanting to be more, or condemn you for not having reached that place yet. All that matters is that you know what you want to be, and that you’re becoming it.”  A little bit of an encouraging smile curves at her lips; it isn’t obscenely obvious, but it’s there. “No need for apologies. Speaking what’s on your mind isn’t a bad thing.”

For what anything is worth, Saima is always willing to listen and so they do, purposely remaining quiet to get the full point of her speaking. The idea of only deserving good things feels strange but it is something they had heard before – perhaps it’s not as much humoring them as they’ve been lead to think.”I think that does help more than I ..expected to say the least. Sometimes it’s so easy for me to feel adrift that despite my best efforts, it doesn’t seem all that worthwhile but I have to remember the effort has to count for something in the end. Even if it’s only making myself better.”

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@sansarika

    A little bit of a sigh comes out. “I suppose you’re right. I just.. I have a lot of fears about not being enough, never being enough. And with the changes, I’ve undertaken… I’ve been feeling especially vulnerable. Since now I’m outside of the boundaries of what most of our colleagues can relate to. I’m .. I’m struggling to not feel like so…utterly alienated from everyone around me. And like I somehow deserve to be treated badly or ignored.”They shake their head a bit. “I’m sorry, I’ve said too much. I just, it’s been on the back of my mind for a long, long time.”