1. How do you sleep?

I don’t sleep all that well. I get several hours of sleep a night. And to be honest with you, I do get a lot of replaying visions of things I’ve done and failures. So any sleep I do get isn’t incredibly restful. I do often end up fairly drained even after a decent amount of sleep. So it’s not really a matter of how I sleep it’s often whether or not I sleep at all. 

11. How often do you cry?

I tend to keep those events fairly private. But I guess I find myself stressed to the point of tears once every few months or so. Sometimes depression creeps up on me but that usually just leaves me relatively numb rather than all that ready to cry. 

15. Worst thing a lover has done to you?

Cheat. And then belittle me when confronted with the reality of their betrayal.

1. Physical scar with the worst memory?

I guess I have some scars on my chest from being subjugated to some let’s say- incredibly harsh treatment during the second World War. I had already been made vulnerable due to the loss of my population at such a rate and being under people’s control – but having been captured, those forces had no issues attempting to test the limits of what I could survive. 

I remember being near-dead, revived and being put back into that near-dead condition a number of times. 

1. Emotional scar with the worst memory?

I think the emotional scar – is just the collective feeling of not having my own autonomy for years and years on end. It felt like I was never going to be capable of handling my own affairs – or that the world would never let me as long as the land had some appeal to be controlled by someone else. 

It still kind of lingers around me to this day, to the point that the way that I see my colleagues has been permanently affected. 

1. First heartbreak?

Had a crush on a village girl that was close to my physical age at the time. I ..I was convinced that I was going to try and marry her at the time. I spent time trying to get to know her and everything. But I really should have known that her family had heard rumors about me not being the ideal uh ‘partner’ for her and so quite publically, she told me I couldn’t really get any closer to her. That was a relatively crushing moment because it just highlighted what might not be possible for me at an early age.