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Dear Dad (Anysus),

I hope you’ve been learning more about the way the world is currently these days. It’s admittedly a lot to take in and it’s at a really weird changing point at the moment. So the timing to come around is interesting to say the least. But I hope that you’ve been finding things that you enjoy – since there’s so many opportunities to find fun things to like. 

Additionally, I have been doing well. Summer has been fairly cool up here but it hasn’t stopped me from doing a lot of sailing and spending time outdoors in the forests. It’s where I tend to feel more like myself. Pretty sure I originated in one of these forests really. 

Maybe it would be cool if I could have you go on a walk with my through one of the forest trails. That could be pretty fun.

Otherwise, the work has been a lot – being part of a council requires a lot of responsibility but I’m doing my best with it. 

Thanks again for being a cool parental figure and I look forward to your next visit. I’ll be sure to have fresh bread ready for you.

-Saima.

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.

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“I..I guess the later 1990s were one of the periods that I felt most content. I had gotten my independence back, I was changing in ways that boosted the prospects of my people, there was just so much room for opportunity. Booms always seem to feel weirdly energizing despite knowing full well that there has to be an end to it.

In spite of that…I feel pretty content now as well. I do recognize the need for growth and the strange and worrying times that we’re in. But I’ve been really content to be myself in facing some personal changes that I needed to address a long time ago. But better late than never, I suppose.“

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Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

“The thing I regret the most so far. Uh. I…There is a story about myself as a youth that I have never told anyone and I don’t really intend on changing that. But there is an action that I took while I was no more than maybe 8 years old physically that signifies the end of my childhood and the realization that I could be no..ordinary person, that I could not really be any kind of good. I..At the time the action was justified but I still think I regret that a lot.Otherwise it was just.. things I felt I could have fought harder to avoid even though I could have failed in doing so.”

Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.
“I think that’s a toss-up for me. It’s between the first ‘official’ birthday that I had in 1918 when I truly felt like an adult and coming into my own after centuries of being stuck in this limbo state of somewhat maturing but never really being in control. And the other one is the 1st birthday after regaining my independence – it seemed to reinforce how important that day was to me since for so long I couldn’t celebrate publicly under threat of duress.”

Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had.

“The best dream? I think my favorite dreams often involve seeing my people in control of their own destinies and actually happy. It’s a lot to ask for but it’s a dream that I like having more than anything else. It’s a dream that’s gotten me through some incredibly difficult times more than once.”

Talk about your worst fear.

Saima is silent for a little while as if to think about it. “You know I’m incredibly wary about losing self-sovereignty. That would be a real nightmare for me since so much effort and sacrifices have been made in the service of becoming independent, and re-gaining independence – that to have that ripped again would be truly horrifying. It would lead me through a really dark period of questioning my existence for sure.”

Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

“I always have a weakness for personal stories from citizens about their grandparents and being able to remember interacting with those grandparents and seeing the threads of their families coming together. So I guess it means a lot to see the lines of family continuing on through the generations in spite of the challenges that my people have faced over the years. There is a resilience about them that is in incredibly admirable. It only serves to reinforce my dedication of service to them.”

Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

A dry, dark laugh comes out of Saima’s mouth as their eyes drift off. “There are a lot of those things. I wish I wouldn’t deny my feelings. I wish I wouldn’t avoid telling people what’s on my mind so much. I wish I could stop self-isolating when I feel withdrawal periods coming on. I wish I could stop evaluating the motives of everyone around me. I wish I could stop doubting myself and putting myself down a little bit in my head. I wish I could stop being so pessimistic about being around others. I wish I could stop overthinking things until it practically drives me up the wall. I wish  I could… I wish i could stop doing a lot of things.  I suppose the issue is I know for a fact that I …I’m not really likely to stop. Despite my best efforts.”

“I’ve never seen you angry before.”

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    Comments about not being seen angry have come on a somewhat regular basis these days. “Ah yeah.  I don’t really think that’s a bad thing these days. Maybe a little frustration, a little irritation when things come up. But – I, I’d do try to avoid getting legitimately angry. I know what I’m like when I’m that way and despite my relatively chill demeanor – that can easily turn to callousness if anger is infused there. It’s not something I like to fully show to people. So maybe it’s for the best that you haven’t seen me in such a bad situation.”

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Any advice on improving Tumblr RP experience?

Be more than willing to take breaks. Be willing to be on the low for a little while. Find friends that you can actually confide to. Because while you can be on good terms with a lot of people – it doesn’t mean you necessarily feel comfortable with them. So. Get a few folks that you can vent to in private if you need that. 

Uh. Be free to stay creative but stay considerate at the same time. It’s your place to have fun but it’s a public place to have fun – so maybe keeping that as a reminder will help. 

Don’t feel obligated to feel as part of something if you’re not feeling it. If you’re kind of weirdly out of it, don’t let that stop you from just throwing yourself into writing and interacting in the meantime. 

Enjoy the weird memes.

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Are there any FC’s you believe should be used more? Why?

I don’t know. Maybe more nonbinary FCs – that’d be pretty cool to see, provided they are used with nonbinary characters since I feel like more of those would be rad. But in general I like seeing FCs that aren’t common and so end up feeling more like a find. Idk. It’s hard to describe. 

Obviously more FCs of color (which I focus on my other blogs) but uh. Idk. Have fun with it. 

⚈ What sweet things tend to happen to you from time to time RP wise?

Uh? I don’t know? I mean sometimes there’d be a real poignant thread about Saima being comfortable around people or they are calling out people but doing so in a way that helps them learn. I don’t know – that’s kind of sweet.  obviously more things that help Saima feel adored and liked are nice moments to have – but even things like people giving them credit for having a steady hand at work. That’s a more professional thing that can be a good moment.

Who inspires you?

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[I mean a ton of people really. A lot of the people I follow because I do admire them in different ways. Mostly for writing but also for being willing to not put up with bs that they often see. 

but like Kaj from her blogs is definitely one, Dani, Baguette, Heath, Lottie, Dio, Lion. Idk. I could make a really long list but you know that’s kind of what keeps me around people who write well and are cool people 

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